shewhoisadreamer
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/!\ Call me what you want
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It's my birthday soon. I'll have wasted another year.
It's the worst day of the year. I'll do nothing, just like the last.
And when you think about it, it's a big deal. It's the day you were born.
So if you don't celebrate it, and nobody gives a shit, they do not recognise your existence.
And even though that was evident to me (I've spent four years without friends)
all this time, on one particular day it cannot be ignored.
And that is why my birthday is the worst, and it might be the last.
It's the worst day of the year. I'll do nothing, just like the last.
And when you think about it, it's a big deal. It's the day you were born.
So if you don't celebrate it, and nobody gives a shit, they do not recognise your existence.
And even though that was evident to me (I've spent four years without friends)
all this time, on one particular day it cannot be ignored.
And that is why my birthday is the worst, and it might be the last.
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What happened to oaklungs?
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Has anybody kept some of her writing? Her poems? What a shame. She was so good she could've been published.
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Embarrassing.
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I'm a solitary soul
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I have noticed that, as I have aged, I have become happier in general.
I think this is down to the snippets of wisdom I develop year by year, but also because of the newfound
independence that growing up grants.
independence that growing up grants.
I am highly independent - probably abnormally so. Of course, the loner lifestyle is not perfect, and there's
a naivety lingering within (in that I think isolation from others will stop me from being hurt).
a naivety lingering within (in that I think isolation from others will stop me from being hurt).
Of course not. You get hurt. I'm human. I need other humans.
But at the same time, I feel more in control of my own happiness. A few years ago, it was difficult being
alone, but I'm so used to it now. I don't wake up day by day, disappointed at the fact I have no one to
converse with.
alone, but I'm so used to it now. I don't wake up day by day, disappointed at the fact I have no one to
converse with.
So what do I do? I get on with it, and make my way in the world. I deal with things. And it just so happens
that there are often incidents in which I see other people, afraid - when I am not. What doesn't kill you can
make you a nervous bloody wreck at times, but on the other hand, sometimes it is true - I am stronger.
make you a nervous bloody wreck at times, but on the other hand, sometimes it is true - I am stronger.
I've got so many things to look forward to. And you know what? They're plans I make alone, looking ahead
and knowing I'll be - you guessed it - alone.
and knowing I'll be - you guessed it - alone.
At the best of times, I don't need anyone else. Companionship is just a fantastic thing for me, that I no longer
take for granted. But it's not the foundation on which my contentment is placed; not like how everyone seems
to expect it.
take for granted. But it's not the foundation on which my contentment is placed; not like how everyone seems
to expect it.
This anticipation of all the things I've got ahead may be short-lived, but for as long as I can, I'm going to keep
going. What is the alternative?
going. What is the alternative?
(Contrary to popular belief, I am not anti-social; rather, selectively so.)
And I have learned so much from it.
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